i don't really use LJ at all anymore.
at least not to post.
and i like that a lot.

i needed to have a return to the paper and pen.
 

okay.

today is SUCH an amazing day.

one. we were approved!
two. leighton & cobra's new song (HELL YESSSS.)
three. my chester french package came in!!!!
four. I'M HOME!


ahhhhhhhhh.
i love life.
truly.

"i make them good girls go bad."
<3

Amazing

Lovely

Young (work it, girl!)

Calcuating

Exciting

heck yes.
i love finding the little things.

as much as i hate to admit it, i miss you.
a lot.

spending all this time with you, or around you, is killing me.
i just want to talk to you.
and fix things.
but they won't be fixed, will they?

at night it's the worst.
memories flood me.

ughhh.
but you're still one of the biggest idiots i've ever met.
(that doesn't mean i don't miss you any less.)

the bravery's "split me wide open".

<3

ps.

i enjoy being catie malone's OMGCATIE!!! fangirl immensly.

all i have to say to you is

fuck YOU.

i'm sitting here in my whitewashed jeans with my short hair, my newly painted nails, my rings, and my tea and i'm feeling bohemian as fuck.
hellz yeah.

only two more weeks.
where has the time gone?

GOAL: 
alyce=half speed.
:)
i'm going to be the middle mary for once.
and i'm going to like it.

and i'm not going to stress out over this stupid dance.
if it's an epic fail, at least i'll have on a pretty dress.

this is all for the rest of the week.

i hate feeling this way.
and they've picked up on it too.
i just want this to stop.
or be given a lifetime guarantee of endless sleeping.

slightly bothered, mostly fine.
people with "holier than thou" attitudes make me want to slit my wrists.
ping pong for wishes was a SUCCESS!
more than forty-five dollars, i'm thinking.
YAY.
listening to the killers.
always a plus.

going to go attack erika and see if she wants to work on thesis.
want to live in blount.
want to be a big sister.
want my babies.

irritation and sleepiness is all i feel right now.
and anxiety.
don't forget that one.
but i got to see biggie today and that was nice.
i'm just irritated.

blah.
headaches blow.

and there is a hole in my jeans pocket.
at least i'm wearing cute underwear.
blah.

hopefully.
we're telling my grandmother in like, T-minus five minutes.
please pray for my family.

i'm completely enamored with Razia's Shadow: The Musical.
so good.
just...amazing.
and, you know me, once i heard one song, i had to hear them all.
& now i have them.
the songs of the musical, i mean.
:) 
( life is looking up.  )

there is a can of chick peas on my mousepad.
got stuck in my bag instead of mom's.

i need to get started on my day.
or at least attempt it.
i need to write my paper.
BLAST.

"the angels were his ink-slingers."

i am pathetic, truly.
i can't go a day.
a mfing DAY.
come on, now.

i failed at my Chamber of Secrets mission.
i'm convinced there is a black hole in my house.
however, i've just moved right onto Prisoner of Azkaban.

didn't go to bed far too late last night...
1:05 am, to be exact.
i might go out to lunch with momma.
that would be nice, considering that day trip to the gump will not happen. :(
but i talked to him last night, so whatevvvv.
i'm free as the wind, haha.
(when i wanna be. otherwise i'm a "dramatic, clingy feminist". HOLLER.)
if i'm a feminist then penguins can fly.

i need to work on my paper, finish it and be done.
but i don't wannnnnnnna.

oh well, as the world turns so it will be done.

i'm having a pretty okay break for the most part, with the exception of NO DAY TRIP.
:(

i need to stop dwelling on that.
although the weather is dreary, i'm sunnnnny inside!
:)

bahhhh.
this whole, "in alyce's house, only the book jacket of CoS exists except the one you can't fucking read!!!" is pissing me OFF.
all i wanted to do was curl up and read harry potter.
blasttttt.

okay:

1. Write your LJ username.
2. Write your two favorite bands/groups at the moment (not overall, just currently).
3. Write I ♥ [something].
4. Write the name of your favorite person of all time.
5. Write down your recently favored person.
6. Tag 5 people to do this meme.

1. therainbowcxn
2. taking back sunday &&& chester french.
3. I ♥ texting & talking to him.
4. alyceeee.
5. heather; haley; heather v; courtney; shaneeee.
6.do it if you see, please.


+++++++
okay,
enough of that.
i am in a fantastic mood!
nothing could be better.
well, that's a lie.
if a day trip to montgomery on thursday could be arranged, that'd be fantastic.
and this summer is the summer o muzik for alyceeee!
see, look: 
-taking back sunday with courtney
-the decemberists with court& dad
-owl city with leah?

i really wanted to go to warped tour, but orientation got in the way.
blast.
although orientation is going to be a blast!
i'm so excited.
high hopes & velvet ropes, yessir.

good day today.
woke up at nine by alarm, turned if off and slept until eleven. was in a dreamlike stupor until twelve noon.
woke up officially.
began to brush my teeth and got a text from one of my favorite people.
(i was thought of. yay.)
was asked if i wanted to go to disney world for her birthday.
(she always has the best birthdays.)
said, "of COURSE! disney world &&& emily! two of my fave things EVER!"
(am sorely hoping that it does not interfere with orientation. that would make me sad.)
began to gather clothes for dressing.
momma called.
did i want to see ZZ's?
"of course! i'd love to!"
(i love spending time with momma, and ZZ's is oh so exciting.)
here i am, accounting the details of my day thus far &&& tbs came on my iTunes DJ (fancy, right?) without me even asking it to.

SWEET!
i love good days.
:)

i am absolutely blown away by Milk. i mean, i knew it was up for Oscars, but GEEZ.
bloody fantastic.
now i know why i stand the way i do on certain issues.
okay, let me rephrase.
now i know that i have support behind what i stand for and what my convictions are.
it's really liberating, honestly.
& harvey milk.
WOW.
he is a truly amazing man, and his work will live on.
i mean, i knew a little of him before i saw the film, but now i am in complete awe of him.
not only did he change San Fransisco for the gays, but for everyone.
and it wasn't only San Fran either!
it's the States.
& the revolution keeps spreading.

the world will change, with everything.
i know it.
i won't lose faith. i refuse.

"But most of all, if Harvey had not been taken from us 30 years ago, I think he'd want me to say to all of the gay and lesbian kids out there tonight who have been told that they are less than by their churches, by the government or by their families, that you are beautiful, wonderful creatures of value and that no matter what anyone tells you, God does love you and that very soon, I promise you, you will have equal rights federally, across this great nation of ours.

Thank you. Thank you. And thank you, God, for giving us Harvey Milk".
-Dustin Lance Black on accepting the Oscar for Best Screenplay.

TAKING BACK SUNDAY.
IN ATL.
JUNE 17.
DEAR GEEZ.
SO EXCITING.
AND AT THE MASQUERADE!
SCORE.
I'M GOING.
EVEN IF IT KILLS ME.
OHMYGOSHOHMYGOSHOHMYGOODNESS.